i’ve been feeling quite sad/depressed/idek these days, like, nothing made sense anymore and i had completely lost all the motivation to do anything, and this morning i went to school with the intention of sitting in a bench somewhere and read although i was too sad even to do that (and then i ended up going to the lesson i planned to skip anyway) and the day was being quite meh but then some things happened (hah) and after lunch i went to a museum with a friend and then we sat on a bench and talked for hours and then went to a secondhand bookshop and i bought three books and idk in general it was a really cool day, especially because my friend is really nice and the kind of person i can talk about literally anything with
and now i’m in a really good mood, i hadn’t felt like this in a long time and i’m really happy idk
it’s funny because this morning the sky was grey and dull and in the afternoon it gradually became sunny and it changed so gradually i didn’t even notice until like hours later, and my mood did exactly the same haha
i know this is stupid and totally irrelevant but i’m happy and i needed to say it.
Yesterday it was my birthday and although I didn’t want to turn 21 and I hate birthdays because I never have anyone to celebrate it with, but now I’m sad because it’s over and yesterday it wasn’t ~special~ enough
also the weather has been terrible lately
I hope next week will be sunny so I can go to the park and sit on a bench and read or visit interesting places or something
I enjoy being alone when it’s sunny and I can spend the day walking through the park or visiting museums and secondhand bookshops etc